Friday 22 February

Friday 22 February......... 06:52:34 pm

The text came along....... She has let it loose, She has dropped the rope. She can't hold on to it again... She was my only strength but this means that its over.... 

It this true? i wiped my eyes just to make sure I have a good site and read properly what was written. "Davie I know this is hard but I feel this relationship has no future there is just too much opposition that I can't bear any more. Forgive me, but I have no option" Does this mention of ending the relationship or she is just under so much pressure that she just need space? Come on Davie read the writing on the wall. She is quitting only that she can't tell you in a direct way. Maybe she is afraid of what you would do if she is abit harsh in telling you this.... My brain raced and couldn't sleep all night. Trying to think if this was real. Comparing to the sweet moments and times we had and the damage we have had to the relationship, I failed to convince myself that she could be ending the relationship. But another thought though of the shame, embarrassment, psychological trauma of the insults and ridicule she has received at the expense of trying to save this relationship. I felt for her. I understood even how more confused she was before sending me that. How confused at the thought of letting me go just like that. She could be feeling like persecuting someone who is so innocent such that doesn't deserve the punishment. She is human I know and she has not forgotten how rosy and sweet this affair was. I UNDERSTAND YOU GAL. 

Words are failing me now. Can't write more than this for I am very devastated .... I still feel so much love for this girl even though she has told me this..... Three days since she broke the news, I still feel great and much love for her. I don't have reason enough to blame her or live by her negatives in the way she has handled it all.

She still remain the best woman ever